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January 15th, 2009 (10:32 am)

Well, I've been gone a while. ^_^ I've been a very busy little critter who's been (amongst other things) writing an absolutely atrocious paper, which is currently being poked and prodded by people.
In other news, it seems I'm finally starting to shift a bit of the extra weight (damn you, Zyprexa), let's hope it keeps up and I can get back to being somewhat less chubby.
Oh, and I'm turning 26... does that mean I should start being practical and adult-like?

I've also been too lazy to scan pictures but here's one that I scanned before christmas... I plan to do another version of it, as this was sort of a "test run" to try some things.

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Feelings of personal failure vs artistic progress?

October 19th, 2008 (09:53 pm)

current mood: drunk and contemplative
current song: Swallow, Emilie Autumn

I have been busying myself with a few oil paintings recently (no pictures since I don't have a decent camera) which has been very effective in making me not think about being ugly, kind of lonely and generally pretty useless. (Which seems to have been more or less a theme for about a year.)
I wonder if the fact that I've been doing artistically well (At least I think I have.) has any connection with my personal life being more or less of a fiasco?
As in; the feelings of failure that accompanies my personal life means that I put more energy into painting because in a painting it doesn't really matter what I look like, if I'm loved/liked/seen as a freakish thing or whatnot. (Also, the uglier I feel the more hesitant I am to go out and mingle with people, which in turn gives me more time to paint.)
Actually, I have no idea what the devil I'm talking about right now. (I should run away before I'm arrested for typing under the influence of alcohol. Haha!)

"Run awaaaaaaay!"

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Another random picture.

October 14th, 2008 (01:18 pm)

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Might need a bit more poking around with.

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Isabella... and a bunch of sketches.

September 28th, 2008 (12:46 pm)

current mood: procrastinating
current song: Gesualdo - Madrigali a cinque voci, libro II

I mentioned before that I was playing around with a bit of nonsense... well, here it is: Isabella and her pot of basil. It's really just my playing around, though I do rather like her face, neck and shoulders (kind of sexy in my opinion). Down below, under an LJ-cut, there are a bunch of sketches... kind of image heavy... but yes... they're just silly sketches so not all that good anyway. -_-

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SKETCHES HERE.> Lady of Shalott thingy sketch... <a href=Collapse )

There... Now... I should get back to doing work which I've been procrastinating to the point where the deadline is looming over me in a most unpleasant way.

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September 9th, 2008 (09:09 pm)

Well, one has returned... no pictures to post at the moment due to a certain period of feeling less than well which led to, ahem, fairly widespread destruction in the picture department. But I am working on some nonsense and as soon as I've sorted through the wreckage I may post some of the sketches that survived.

What else is new? Not much... I actually looked pretty for the first time in ages today... my hair was not a messy tangle and I was wearing a pretty, Hepburn-ish, dress which a kind young man complimented me on (as I was balancing on top of a chair trying to reach the top shelf to get a big book down so I'd have something to peek at while I was waiting for some people) in the institution library. Which was rather nice. (Then I got self-conscious over the state of my arms and put a cardigan on... which unfortunately covered up the pretty dress.)
I've tried to convince some people to go away with me... France, Italy, somewhere... No luck thus far. (Not that I should either: no time and no money.)
Well... That's it...

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August 27th, 2008 (09:41 pm)

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Going away on holiday in the morning.

August 2nd, 2008 (01:39 am)

Which means no internet access for a while. (Not that it makes much difference, as my scanner has refused to obey me recently. Ah well... hopefully I'll get it working when I get back and get plenty of new pictures scanned and uploaded.)

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July 9th, 2008 (11:28 pm)

current mood: artistic
current song: Release me - Oh Laura

Ink and gold, A4. Not entirely bad (it's a pity that gold doesn't really scan very well)... needs a title though.

Other stuff: Yes, I'm a disorganized twit who is really too lazy to scan stuff regularly.

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Johari window thing

June 27th, 2008 (08:55 pm)

I'm curious how people see me.

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Nothing much.

June 22nd, 2008 (10:33 pm)

current mood: chipper

A few hours ago, I got back from a little trip.
I'm still trying to unpack/sort out all the things from the move but *ahem* I'm really far too lazy to be very efficient at the moment. It's so much nicer to lie in my comfy new sofa, casually sift through random stuff and drink a fairly pleasant (free) wine.
I've been rather unproductive recently. I've done a handful of half-decent sketches, written a bit of nonsense and painted the walls of my bedroom (from sickly purple to a crisp white on which I'm planning to add a border of black fleur-du-lys, I think it'll end up looking quite nice) but that's pretty much all. Oh, and I made a new userpic, which I quite like as I look sort of cute in it. ^_^
What else is new? I've more or less promised to look after my cousins cat for a few weeks in July, I think it might be rather fun. I am more of a dog-person than a cat-person but I really like cats as well.
Oh my! There's a rather impressive thunder and lightning storm outside... I'll go pour myself some more wine and go watch it from the balcony. Hey-hop. ^_^

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June 7th, 2008 (05:52 pm)

current location: In a pile of books and boxes.
current mood: busy
current song: Missing Link - Utena OST

...is moving such a pain? I'm trying to pack up my books and it just makes me tired (there's just so many of them). The fact that it's almost 30 degrees (celsius ofcourse) outside doesn't help much either. *sulk* I'm getting ice-cream... so there!

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June 4th, 2008 (07:30 am)

current mood: artistic
current song: Luci serene e chiare - Gesualdo

A4, Ink.
I have to rush off today so I'll just post this and run. After today I'll be freeeee! (Well... sort of.)

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Making mushroom soup at midnight.

May 29th, 2008 (01:16 am)

current location: In front of the computer, writing this blasted essay thing.
current mood: pleased

I just made what was, quite possibly, the best mushroom soup I've ever had! (...and it was all from leftover scraps since I've been too busy to do much shopping.)
It had finely chopped mushrooms, onion, red onion, a clove of garlic. All of it softened up in some butter. Then some leftover white wine, some spiced chicken stock (which I made last time I cooked chicken), salt and pepper, a bit of milk (borderline expired but still ok)... and then I cooked it all for a fair bit of time whilst whipping it.
When I tast-tested the soup it was good... not great, but good. That's when I happened on the idea to toss in a little red wine as well. (Really cheap, Romanian Merlot...) That was the final touch it needed.
Gorgeous! Absolutely wonderfully lovely.

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This week... (Quite cheerful at the moment.)

May 24th, 2008 (12:56 am)

current mood: cheerful
current song: Zessei Bijin - Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei ending theme

A very interesting week.
Firstly, I got the picture which I have to analyse for my final essay... it's... umm... not very inspiring. -_- I've been trying to figure out where to start and not done a great job of it. Though I've finally managed to get started *sigh* Now I just need to make sure I meet my deadline. (Not to mention that I hope I can manage to find enough to write about this pretty dull piece.)

Secondly, in my attempt to not think about this picture I've done a pile of sketches and... I'll try to scan some of it as soon as I've finished writing the essay.

Now... the big news of this week: I'VE GOT A NEW FLAT! ^_^ It's a pretty nice one, not huge (42.6 square metres) but for a single person it's a pleasant enough flat. 2 rooms, kitchen and bathroom (with a bath). It's got a balcony and is in a pretty nice area surrounded by woodland with a lake and a pond close by. There's also a gym/pool nearby so going swimming won't be such a hassle anymore.
I'll be moving into it in mid June. *excited*
Holidays are coming up. (Though I'll have to spend a large chunk of it working orcourse.) Yay! Öland, probably another trip to Italy and (hopefully, so long as I can afford it) a trip over to England.

This has put me in a pretty good mood. Now, if I could just find someone interesting/pretty to sketch/paint as well I'll be thoroughly pleased.

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Why I should not be left to study in a room where there are pretty people.

May 14th, 2008 (11:51 pm)

current mood: easily distracted
current song: Chambermaid - Emilie Autumn

...especially not when I have fun pens to play with... I started out all good and focused, but after a short while I had drifted off into sketching-pretty-people mode. (No I didn't get much done... I'll have to do it tomorrow instead.)

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May 13th, 2008 (10:24 pm)

current location: My lovely, large, comfy, bed!
current mood: Stop bloody poking me!

Today I have (once again) been poked, prodded, undressed, prodded some more, twisted, bent, had my blood stolen and so on. The doctor has come to believe that maybe the pain in my back and leg doesn't come from the leg, making the back hurt, but from the back, making the leg hurt. ^_^ She also thinks that the beating I took from those teenaged girls a few years ago may have caused, or at least aggravated, the whole thingy-ma-gig. Whoo... great! -_-
Anyways... on Friday I have yet another appointment, this time to be scanned and x-rayed and so on... Oh, what FUN! Geh... Ah well.

*sniffle* I hate being broken... (It makes me feel all small and lonely.)

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Exam-muck... and a not entirely new drawing... (Oh, and odd oil sketch, self-portrait, thingy)

May 9th, 2008 (07:04 pm)
current mood: Odd.
current song: Lareine - Fiancailles

Yeah... there should be laws against having a 5 hour long exam on a friday when it's overly sunny and 25 degrees. -_- (Especially when one is feeling quite dodgy and is therefore eating a ton of icky pills which makes one not only sluggish but also extremely thirsty and very nauseous. Geh! And ofcourse more than half of the bleeding exam was about the 20th century... Ah well, I think I passed at least.)

Still... as soon as I've finished tidying up this sorry excuse for a flat and finished writing this little transliteration thingy-ma-gig (Wai! Money!), I'll have the rest of the weekend free to paint, sketch, watch fun stuff on DVD and reeeest! ^_^

Oh! Good thing no:2... I found my pretty, lovely Lareine CD "Fierte no Umi to tomo ni kieyu". I thought I'd lost it forever but there it was, it had slipped into the lining of one of my suitcases. Both the little poster and the little book were still right there in the box-thing and nothing has been damaged. *Cheering dance*

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Ink, A4. Thingy-ma-bob... I call it "Peacock coat", don't ask me why as I'm not entirely sure.

Here's my playing with colours and swirlyness... 'cause I could. (...and I didn't really have anything better to do... *embarrassed cough*)Collapse )

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What is WRONG with me?!? Argh!

May 6th, 2008 (10:09 pm)

current mood: frustrated
current song: Loreena McKennitt - The highwayman

There must be something seriously wrong with my brain!
I have an exam on Friday, so I'm studying (as you do) then the books I'm reading mentions Romaine Brooks (who is not particularly important for this exam) in passing. I then remember I have some books about her and now I realise I've spent the whole day reading about her instead of studying for the exam!!!

GAH!!! And this is not the first time I've done this either, I do it the whole blasted time! I get interested in something then I develope a near obsession with some things (artists, certain works of art, etc. etc.) and bury myself in finding out as much as I possibly can about them, completely neglecting the things I'm meant to be doing. -_-;
Why do I do this? What's with this obsessional wish to find out everything about stuff that catches my interest? Some weird character flaw?

.... .... GAAARGH!?!

On the upside I doodled a bit whilst I had lunch... doodles that sort of morphed into sketches and I think some of them can be turned into really nice drawings. ^_^
*sigh* All the work I've done recently has been a bit... I don't know... I just wish I had more time to do these fiddly, detailed thingies which I love... Blast you university for eating my time! ^_^;

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Random sketches.

May 2nd, 2008 (10:03 pm)

current mood: drained
current song: Misery loves company - Emilie Autumn

In an attempt to avoid doing what I'm supposed to be doing (which is studying... but I'm afraid large parts of modernism and post-modernism, bores me, not to mention that some of it makes my brain hurt. I know... that's practically a mortal sin to admit to, but I can't help it.) I looked through one of my drawers to sort out a few piles of papers, drawings, sketches and notes. Here's a few of the things I found. (Not very good quality pictures I'm afraid... they were all A3 so they wouldn't fit in my scanner and I really do need a new camera. The pictures are rather rubbish-ish in themselves, complete nonsenses... but I'm still avoiding doing actual work, so...)

A few random sketches.Collapse )

Oh, by the way. Unfortunately I didn't get the flat. Which is a shame as it was rather perfect for me.

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St. Sebastian

April 29th, 2008 (09:40 pm)

current mood: trying to study

Ink, A4.

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